My state right now is like ... --afraid.
I am afraid thinking about burdens of my life, so what I do is to stop thinking about everything.
I am afraid doing unfinished things, so what I do is not to start anything.
Yes, it's like taking antibiotics. You hope to heal someday, but in the process you will make other part of you sick. But hopefully all will be cure in the same time and I have a chance to live again.
